Wednesday, January 16, 2008

The bad mommy

I have this dream that someday I won't feel like/be such a bad (absent) parent/partner. I feel guilty so much of the time about how my family gets neglected in the process of realizing my life ambitions. And they're about to get neglected a whole lot more, unfortunately. But hopefully I can get all this internship business over by the end of winter quarter and spend a wonderful spring with them ...before relocating to who knows where for summer. I'm trying my best but I still just feel bad a lot of the time. Either I'm a bad student/employee or I'm a bad parent/partner. Can't seem to get them both right at the same time. Bah.

3 comments:

HappyBunny said...

It's hard. It's like joggling two careers. I remeber reading an interview with Sallie Krawcheck, she said "when women get up there and talk to you about work life balance, they are lying to you. I work all the time. I sent 220 emails last weekend. The last time I went out for drinks on a weekday like Sex in the City was when I was twenty-two. This is not a bitter comment. It’s a choice." *sigh* I have no idea when I want to have kids. I'm overwhelmed by my two cats, can't imagine babies.

Another idea is that you can always start baby Y early on the trainning, building quant models, working the excel sheet, learning Martingale measure theory... you know, building your own working army at home(don't know about the child labor law approves if it is your own kid) and bonding at the same time :P Just an idea.

HappyBunny said...

oh and GOOD LUCK with internship hunting. hope you will be able to find a good one in Chicago, so you don't have to relocate for the summer, moving is such a pain.

MaybeMBA said...

Ha. My comment to Y about kids was that I felt like they should pull their own weight from an early age, I was thinking more in terms of chores, but now that you mention it - toddler Excel training it may be ;) But I do think Baby Y's first word might just end up being "10K"...